Three Year Old- Eric Church
this is my song. when i first heard this album, three-year-old was the only song I remotely liked. After hearing the album a few more times, I have grown to like it quite a bit and become more attached to this song. I listened this morning when I was the only one awake in the house at 2:30 AM. it was so relaxing, standing there with my eyes closed and simply enjoying the music and how tired I was. and how happy to be at peace with grandma’s ashes and finally finding a memory piece (the bangle bracelet).
When I think about this song now, I have this sharp image of hook-rugging that eagle in my room with Gwen in the room next door. I remember gushing to Gwen about how much I liked this album. I also remember the impetus for my renewed interest in the album, even though I had said I only liked that one song: A flitting crush on a boy. And then I remember that dinner at Wildfire and talking about rodeo and how that was the first time I ever wore those Levis and that daisy top I bought at South Point. And now I remember, that was my last rodeo that I spoke of. I wished I’d written down what that last one felt like. What I was thinking. I know how I feel now; bittersweet. I loved it; it was beyond fun, but it was the last one.
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Songs are complicated. They represent so much, they mean so much, and they help us remember so much.
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Upon Reviewing this now, I laugh at these reminiscences. I question why I kept updating it and never posting it. Is it for the sake of the embarrassment I feel now? I can’t help but notice that this “on this day 5 years ago” post is getting published nearly “on this day a decade ago”. Funny how I don’t think I would have remembered much of this had I not written any of it down. I might have remembered being in my room and listening to this, but I do not think I would have remembered much else. I am happy to be reminded about finishing that hook rug. Great thing for journalling! It was interesting, too, to see these flashbacks and remember how much I liked Erich Church. My current assessment is that he’s fine, but no Stapleton!
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